During the Lenten season, members of Faith Lutheran Church have written our daily devotions. Today’s writer is Wade Paulson.
44It was now about noon, and darkness came over the whole land until three in the afternoon, 45while the sun’s light failed; and the curtain of the temple was torn in two. 46Then Jesus, crying with a loud voice, said, “Father, into your hands I commend my spirit.” Having said this, he breathed his last. 47When the centurion saw what had taken place, he praised God and said, “Certainly this man was innocent.” 48And when all the crowds who had gathered there for this spectacle saw what had taken place, they returned home, beating their breasts. 49But all his acquaintances, including the women who had followed him from Galilee, stood at a distance, watching these things. Luke 23:44-49
The other day my daughter said to my wife “Mommy, sometimes I just don’t feel like I belong in this family”. Now, that is a very hard thing to hear. Hearing that my daughter feels this way makes me feel guilty and insufficient as a father. It also breaks my heart to have my child in pain.
It made my wife and I take a step back and realize that our perspective, that each of us is a perfect fit together in our family and that Lucy is everything we ever hoped for as a daughter, is not the only perspective. We are torn in what our response should be. We don’t want to overemphasize these feelings, but at the same time, we don’t want to regret not taking her feelings seriously.
We have always worked hard to create an environment in which celebrate Lucy’s adoption, but in doing so, we have also worked at crafting how we all, as a family, should view her story. I am realizing that no matter how hard I try, ultimately I cannot control how my daughter is going to perceive her story. What I have to do is help guide her and allow her to find her peace in her sense of belonging and family.
Let us pray: I pray this Lenten season that I may be guided to keep an open mind and an open heart to search for answers and wisdom. I pray for patience and understanding when faced with opinions and feelings which differ from my own. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.