Greetings to new and old friends,
For the past few months I have been wrestling with my own sense of spiritual centeredness. It seems that life keeps bringing new surprises around every corner and some of them startle me. Turning 55 in October hit me like a ton of bricks. So that got me to praying about God’s will for my life, particularly around God’s will for showing up each day to write devotions.
I actually got so far as to open a new document on September 27th to start writing again. That, literally, is as far as I got. I typed one line: Week of September 27 – October 2, 2015. After that, nothing.
But then last week happened. A week bookended with two Saturday funerals. The first, a father who left behind three young adult children and then, this past weekend, a woman who left behind her 20 year old son. Neither were members of Faith Lutheran Church but, when I am invited into such situations, the mission and members of Faith Lutheran go with me. We remembered both names in our All Saints list this past Sunday.
All week, on top of everything else, I kept thinking “there is something missing.” What was missing was my willingness to show up at a keyboard each day. Seeking the Spirit and listening to the Word and then sharing whatever came out of that with others. But I wasn’t willing. I wasn’t even really willing to be willing.
At the funeral this past Sunday a woman approached me. She told me she missed reading the daily devotions I used to write. I do hear that from time to time but her particular timing really struck me. Yesterday morning before church I told a friend that I was thinking about writing again. He said that would be a great idea.
Then I got home from church, checked my email, and received a notice that my domain names “revkerry.com” and “revkerry.org” are up for renewal. Last night I told that story at our 6TEN recovery service – the theme was the 11th Step – “Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God, as we understand God, praying only for knowledge of his will and the power to carry it out.” I told those gathered that it looks like it is time to start writing devotions again.
Then early this morning I got a text from a friend with a question about a troubling Bible passage. Later this morning I got another text from another friend asking if I was still writing devotions.
OK God. I get the message. For better or worse, I’m willing to be willing. I’m willing to ask for God’s help. To adjust my daily routines. To re-enter that discipline. To trust that God provides and that helping others with their daily devotions even as I help myself will be a good thing. The daily devotions will begin again tomorrow morning.
If you think this is a good thing, then I need your help. Send me ideas – questions you have about faith/life, Bible passages that defy your understanding, suggestions for weekly themes.
Let us pray: Dear Lord, take the wheel lest I ride right into the ditch. For so many years, you richly provided spiritual food to be shared and re-shared. May your Spirit continue to lead us into new understandings, new insights, and new life giving behaviors as we pass on the blessings of your love in our daily lives. In Jesus’ name. Amen.